not how i thought life was gonna go…

What did you think life was gonna be like when you were a kid?

Did you have it ALL planned out?

Well I did.

I was gonna be this powerful lawyer that won every case and when I walked in the room all eyes would be on me just waiting for what I had to say. I’d be rollin’ in the dough too.

Like I had the power suits and heels all picked out.

There was no thought about a husband or kids in my future.

That just wasn’t on my radar.

But life is kinda funny like that…

Because fast forward several years and I found myself married with children.

And NOT a powerful lawyer.

Oh well I guess it just wasn’t in the cards for me.

At least not the lawyer part…

But when you have children you have to be prepared to make the hard decisions… the “spur of the moment” decisions… the “holy crap I don’t think I can get through this” decisions…

And you do.

You make those decisions every day and sometimes twice!

On May 23, 2020 I had to make a hard decision… either sit in my car and wait for the ER doctor to call me or storm the hospital.

And since I didn’t think it would do anyone any good I waited in my car for the ER doc to call me…

Remember that decision I told you about earlier?

Well if you notice the date – May 23, 2020 – right smack in the middle of Covid season and no one was allowed (but the patient) into the ER.

So I had to wait.

And after what felt like an eternity my phone finally rang and I was delivered the news.

“Your son has a brain tumor”.

My heart fell to my feet.

My world began spinning.

My mind began racing.

What…

Why…

How…

Then out came… “I want to see my son!”

And then again during Covid season I was ushered into his room to hug him and start planning our next moves.

You see, we’re fighters. We don’t give up. We access the situation and create a plan.

Yes this one knocked us to our knees but it’s these moments that truly define who we are and who we want to be.

And each and every day we open our eyes we get to choose.

What will you choose?

not how i thought life was gonna go…

case of the dead-eye funnel gods…

Still sucking the teat of your (funnel) master?